I feel pretty today. I don't know why. Maybe it's because I'm wearing the blouse I bought recently. It's a lovely thing. I don't usually wear things like it so wearing a different thing than usuasl made me feel good and pretty. And I really liked that feeling.

So, how is it going? I've been away from vlogging for 2 months, I know. And it's a huge amount of time to "go on hiatus" for vlogging. It's such a waste of time for me because the more I'm not making any videos, the more I get far from my goals and stuff. So hopefully I'll be back as soon as possible and a video will be up this week! I have a couple of video ideas. And they're about the things which are going on in my life recently so I would love to talk about them on here if they weren't video ideas! Sorry!

The only thing I can say right now is that because of being in my senior year in highschool and having extra courses I can't find enough time to make videos. I need to study hard this year because I need to apply to a good university. Everything is taking my time from me. Especially the school exams these days. I just want to do the things I want in my life but some situations don't let me do that. Kind of. I'll make a video as I find enough time. I hate that I couldn't have time since 2 months.

Other than that, I saw Breaking Dawn yesterday! (finally!) And I really, really liked it. The only negative thing I can say about the movie is that sometimes Bella and Edward just kissed too much. I don't like when the characters kiss too much. The only thing they do is just kissing and that bugs me sometimes. Also, Alice's hair was a bit shorter so I didn't like that either. It was looking good, no lies but I like it when it's a bit longer. Because that's how I imagined Alice at first.

And I fell in love with the house! It's just like a paradise. It's isolated from whole the crowd and buildings. It's a peaceful place. I want to live in a house for a while. But just for a while. I don't like being isolated too much.

So, that's all. I think. Just wanted to make a quick update. Will be back with more things! Bye! ^_^

Thoughts From My Mind

Hey there, blog. Didn't see you there. I forgot that you exist. But I have some stuff to write, I guess...

New term has started on September 19th. In case you couldn't tell, I'm going to school since then. But a week is already over! Time really flies fast. I'm in my senior year so probably this year will be fastest. With all the revisings and stuff. And I haven't been sick for months, that's a good thing that has to go on like this.

But even though I'm having busy days more than ever and also school has started, I'll be making videos more often and try to make friends. I have some video ideas on my mind which I wrote down a long time ago, so I hope I'll make them come alive as soon as I possibly can. I think the only thing I have to fix is that to have a proper camera -actually, I'm a beginner now so I don't think it's a big deal but still- and to look at the camera more often. I really hated myself when I was editing my recent video. I look at the camera rarely. And that's not a good thing. Eye contact is important. I haveto make that happen. Make that happen, girl! *talkes to herself*

Anyways, as I'm writing this, I'm thinking about how much I want to go to VidCon and SitC and make friends so much. I feel like I have to be there because they are the places that nobody looks awkwardly at you when you vlog and/or do weird things. 'Cause that's the normal thing at there! If you do an awkward thing, people will join you and do the awkward things with you instead of looking at you like you're a freak and also helps you when you're vlogging there. They are the places that everybody accepts who you are and loves you. and do silly things with you and can write songs for you. -if you're not a "rabid fangirl" and if you accepted the fact that the "famous and hot TouTubers" you want to meet are just normal people-. And they are the places that contains the people who feels the same things with you about vlogging, to be shy in front of the camera, being looked at awkwardly when vlogging and people not understanding what you're doing exactly. They are the places that you can find amazing people to be friends with and people who really cares about you even you were miles away from them and loves your work and even appreciates you for it. And they are the places that has sooo many ukulele players. Ahhh, that's such a nice thing. I want a ukulele! (I'm great at changing topic, aren't I? :P) And these're the best feelings and thing eveeerrr!!

YEP. Guess that's all I'm going to say for now. Not much action happens in my life but there're always thoughts wandering in my mind.

By the way, I just noticed that I'm a Harry Potter fan but I don't know many Wrock songs and I listen to Trock instead and I don't watch Doctor Who or anything. AWWWKKWARRDD.

I think I'll just go sleep now... Thank you for wasting your valuable couple of minutes and reading this.



I'm sleeping now, get out! (Hope you got the reference!)

Blogs Are The Best Things Ever

This course is going to kill me! Because of all this course and revising for university exam things, I feel like my social life is kind of taken away from me. At least I can check the sites I want to check, that's a thing. But since friday, I feel depressed a lot. I'm trying to get rid of this feeling. I have to do it a.s.a.p.

Also, because of these -again-, I'm not able to shoot my video! I don't have time or place or anything. And the bad thing is that when I didn't have video ideas, I had lots of times but now although I have a couple of video ideas, I don't have time or place to shoot it. And that's terrible. Writing the ideas down which pops in my head really helps, by the way. If you think of an idea even for a second, just write that down. It really helps. It does help to me, at least.

Anyways, I don't want to bother both you and I with my depression and anything. *change of topic*

Other than these things, my life is going quite nice. I've made a Quotation Journal and a Why Today Is So Awesome journal, inspired from Kayley Hyde, a.k.a owlssayhooot. And it's going really well. Especially this Why Today Is So Awesome journal makes me write and realize the awesome things that happened that day even though I had a bad day. I even write the tiniest things like the baby boy who was looking at me and smiling when I was eating my food (he was amazingly cute!) or the jumbo size playing cards deck which reminds me of Alex Day's playing card decks collection or when two girls were walking towards me 2 days ago, one of them said something I couldn't hear and the other one responded by saying "Groovy". That was a real awesome thing! ('cause you know, it reminds of Liam and it's cool and stuff) And when I was thinking about it after it happened, I talked to myself like "It was the best thing eveeerr!" And saying "It was the best thing eveeer!" while you're walking on the street is also the best thing ever. I'm also making list of the words I like to pronounce but it only has 5 words right now.

Also, I'm really addicted to brain crack right now. There is a lot of endless thinking. I will get rid of it and make the things I'm thinking of happen a.s.a.p. as well. (even that is a video idea, by the way!)

Until I write again or make a video or something, bye! See ya!

P.S.: I don't know whether my English is correct or not. I hope it's correct...

Yay for first post!

First posts always make me happy. And excited. First posts are cool.

Anyways, I'll write down about things I'm doing, feeling and stuff here. I'll be talking about both mostly. You already know that, I think. Or anticipated, at least. *eyes full of hope*

So, I'm taking a course since Monday. For the university exam which will happen next year, you know. 'Cause I'm a senior in high school this year and this getting accepted to a university marathon has already and officially started. It's bothering me sometimes but I hope to get used to it easily. If I don't, then I'll probably drive nuts.

Course seems nice for now. The people in general and in the classroom seem nice. Hopefully, our friendships will grow gradually. Well, I don't have a proper friendship with anyone in the classroom right now but I will have at some point. A close friend of mine also comes to the course I go to so I hang out with her all the time. And probably I'll make friends thanks to her.

Strangely, since the course started. I'm revising when I get home. Me. Revising! They were two seperate, irrelevant words. But I got used to it easily. I don't get comfortable when I don't revise. It has become to a need. Because it really is a need for university. Especially revising maths and geometry -for me-. I'm not very good at them.

But when I get bored -like today-, playing guitar and being on the computer will be my ways to relief and "escape from madness". AND VLOGGING OF COURSE. I'm planning to make vlogs. I wasn't making them because I couldn't find anything, any idea to talk about. Aahh, it's time to take action! I don't make vlogs, then I want to get friends. Because people waiting for me to be friends with me, right?

I think that's all for today. I'll be thinking of making a video this weekend. I hope I will. I want some success!

For the record, I have started making a favourite words list. There are four words which made the list: Aubergine, mustard, custard and rubbish. Thank you, English accent!

P.S: There were two people sitting next to me when I was at Burger King. I accidently overheard them. They were talking about making a time machine and how it would effect science and technology and stuff. I barely held myself not to interrupt them and join the conversation. It was a cool thing to overhear.

P.S.S: Aaaaandd I hope I'll be doing a BEDA next year at these times! And hopefully, I'll have really nice friends to read when I wrote. ^_^ (Oh gosh, I'm full of hope, aren't I?)