Thoughts From My Mind

Hey there, blog. Didn't see you there. I forgot that you exist. But I have some stuff to write, I guess...

New term has started on September 19th. In case you couldn't tell, I'm going to school since then. But a week is already over! Time really flies fast. I'm in my senior year so probably this year will be fastest. With all the revisings and stuff. And I haven't been sick for months, that's a good thing that has to go on like this.

But even though I'm having busy days more than ever and also school has started, I'll be making videos more often and try to make friends. I have some video ideas on my mind which I wrote down a long time ago, so I hope I'll make them come alive as soon as I possibly can. I think the only thing I have to fix is that to have a proper camera -actually, I'm a beginner now so I don't think it's a big deal but still- and to look at the camera more often. I really hated myself when I was editing my recent video. I look at the camera rarely. And that's not a good thing. Eye contact is important. I haveto make that happen. Make that happen, girl! *talkes to herself*

Anyways, as I'm writing this, I'm thinking about how much I want to go to VidCon and SitC and make friends so much. I feel like I have to be there because they are the places that nobody looks awkwardly at you when you vlog and/or do weird things. 'Cause that's the normal thing at there! If you do an awkward thing, people will join you and do the awkward things with you instead of looking at you like you're a freak and also helps you when you're vlogging there. They are the places that everybody accepts who you are and loves you. and do silly things with you and can write songs for you. -if you're not a "rabid fangirl" and if you accepted the fact that the "famous and hot TouTubers" you want to meet are just normal people-. And they are the places that contains the people who feels the same things with you about vlogging, to be shy in front of the camera, being looked at awkwardly when vlogging and people not understanding what you're doing exactly. They are the places that you can find amazing people to be friends with and people who really cares about you even you were miles away from them and loves your work and even appreciates you for it. And they are the places that has sooo many ukulele players. Ahhh, that's such a nice thing. I want a ukulele! (I'm great at changing topic, aren't I? :P) And these're the best feelings and thing eveeerrr!!

YEP. Guess that's all I'm going to say for now. Not much action happens in my life but there're always thoughts wandering in my mind.

By the way, I just noticed that I'm a Harry Potter fan but I don't know many Wrock songs and I listen to Trock instead and I don't watch Doctor Who or anything. AWWWKKWARRDD.

I think I'll just go sleep now... Thank you for wasting your valuable couple of minutes and reading this.



I'm sleeping now, get out! (Hope you got the reference!)

Blogs Are The Best Things Ever

This course is going to kill me! Because of all this course and revising for university exam things, I feel like my social life is kind of taken away from me. At least I can check the sites I want to check, that's a thing. But since friday, I feel depressed a lot. I'm trying to get rid of this feeling. I have to do it a.s.a.p.

Also, because of these -again-, I'm not able to shoot my video! I don't have time or place or anything. And the bad thing is that when I didn't have video ideas, I had lots of times but now although I have a couple of video ideas, I don't have time or place to shoot it. And that's terrible. Writing the ideas down which pops in my head really helps, by the way. If you think of an idea even for a second, just write that down. It really helps. It does help to me, at least.

Anyways, I don't want to bother both you and I with my depression and anything. *change of topic*

Other than these things, my life is going quite nice. I've made a Quotation Journal and a Why Today Is So Awesome journal, inspired from Kayley Hyde, a.k.a owlssayhooot. And it's going really well. Especially this Why Today Is So Awesome journal makes me write and realize the awesome things that happened that day even though I had a bad day. I even write the tiniest things like the baby boy who was looking at me and smiling when I was eating my food (he was amazingly cute!) or the jumbo size playing cards deck which reminds me of Alex Day's playing card decks collection or when two girls were walking towards me 2 days ago, one of them said something I couldn't hear and the other one responded by saying "Groovy". That was a real awesome thing! ('cause you know, it reminds of Liam and it's cool and stuff) And when I was thinking about it after it happened, I talked to myself like "It was the best thing eveeerr!" And saying "It was the best thing eveeer!" while you're walking on the street is also the best thing ever. I'm also making list of the words I like to pronounce but it only has 5 words right now.

Also, I'm really addicted to brain crack right now. There is a lot of endless thinking. I will get rid of it and make the things I'm thinking of happen a.s.a.p. as well. (even that is a video idea, by the way!)

Until I write again or make a video or something, bye! See ya!

P.S.: I don't know whether my English is correct or not. I hope it's correct...